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I’ll write a longer post this weekend when the holiday traveling and eating calm down, but I wanted to share with everyone that our baby is okay. I don’t take this baby for granted for one second. Every day that goes by I feel grateful that s/he is still around, and hopeful that s/he’ll stay.

We had another ultrasound yesterday, at 6 weeks, 6 days. Instead of the fertility clinic, we did it at Kaiser, which was free, not even a co-pay; way better than our usual $300! The wait was long, though, and the ultrasound quality way lower.

I explained to the doctor that we did IVF, that we hadn’t graduated from the fertility clinic yet, that I had a MC this summer and that I had a hematoma and bled out last week.
He immediately reassured me that baby is still alive and well. He showed us the hematoma, but it was hard to see and not nearly as clear as last week. I don’t know if it was just the machine, or if it reduced in size in the last week.

The heartbeat was 114 bpm. I was hoping for higher but it’s completely normal. He measured the fetus at 6 weeks, 4 days, which is also normal. Just hang on, little one! Keep growing!

We drove to San Diego last night with cooking in tow – I made cranberry sauce, cornbread stuffing, apple pie and pumpkin pie. I love homemade T day food! J’s mom made an organic turkey, cheesy potatoes, and green bean casserole. This morning we took a long walk – my first exercise in days! It’s 80 degrees here and sunny.

My symptoms are pretty reassuring too – totally breathless, boobs extremely sore, nauseous all day.

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone who celebrates! I’m so grateful for my WP community of compassionate, intelligent and caring women.


Last night we tested before bed. I wanted to wait until the am when urine is more concentrated, but I also wanted to experience of testing with J, when she’s awake, not alone at 5am. I waited several hours without using the bathroom and tested right before bed. After the two-minute wait I had J to into the bathroom and look at it first. It was way darker than the morning! I couldn’t believe it. We were so excited. I feel so hopeful. I want more and more Hcg and then a MC-free pregnancy, not just for myself but for all of you, too.

Here’s a comparison of the tests I took yesterday morning and last night – big change in 16 hours!


And the evening test without the handy darkening filter:


Under heavy skies we wonder, under heavy skies we pray

But today there was a harvest and the flowers opened anyway.

-Vanessa Torres

In the field of psychology, and I suppose in pop culture now, the word trigger refers to emotions. When my clients get “triggered,” something set off the very thoughts and emotions they’re working hard to change. In the world of IVF, the “trigger shot” is disguised as a medical term, but we all intuitively know it’s so much more than that. Why else would it affectionately be called a trigger shot? It triggers the nervous excitement a couple has been building up for weeks. It triggers us to believe something could happen. It triggers us to start worrying. It triggers the beginning of a very emotional few weeks.

The universe continues to throw crazy shit at J and I. I quit my job on Friday (more on that later). J had a huge project meeting today, which was supposed to be her retrieval day, that could not be moved and was planned after we started our cycle. My job, which used to be very relaxed with time to obsess over IVF blogs, is now so busy I can barely go to the ladies’. My private practice clients all want to have family sessions all of a sudden. We’re both kind of running on empty, but we’re happy because of all the adrenaline!

Yesterday was J’s final monitoring session. She had 19 follicles on one side and 17 on the other! Her estrogen was over 4,000 the night before so they didn’t even bother telling us her level in last night’s phone call. Our IVF coordinator mixed up her trigger shot and showed us how to use it. It was to be injected subcutaneously, not intramuscularly. Apparently sub q is just as effective. We set an alarm for midnight last night, the time of the trigger shot. Waking up in the middle of the night to get a shot in the stomach isn’t exactly fun but it wasn’t awful either. Of course today J has a red rash around the injection site which our doctor said is nothing to worry about. This morning, since J couldn’t make it into the clinic for monitoring, they had her take a home pregnancy test. The HCG in the trigger shot should make her test positive to be sure it’s working. She tested positive and I called the clinic with her results. Today was a needle-free day! Tonight we just ate some pizza and we’re getting in bed at 9pm.

So we’ve been triggered, physically and emotionally. Her retrieval is at 11am tomorrow. Stay tuned for the number of eggs collected!