Archives for the month of: December, 2015

Last night was J’s office party at a swanky downtown hotel. I was so excited – got my hair cut and styled, got dressed up, did my makeup. Gia had a rough day, very fussy which isn’t like her, and also very giggly. When the nanny arrived, Gia smiled and cuddled with her. She must be having a cognitive growth spurt because she was staring at herself in the mirror, touching her hands to her reflection, then staring into my eyes, and when the nanny came, she stared at her face and ran her little hands along her cheeks. It was like she was on ecstasy.

I had an initial STRONG vodka drink which made me silly. By the time we got from the pre-party to the hotel, though, I started to miss Gia. We chatted with other parents and ate a nice dinner. I had some champagne. Realized I’d have to pump and got 3 oz with the hand pump in a bathroom stall, then dumped it into the toilet. I’ve never done this before – used the hand pump in a bathroom stall or dumped milk out. It actually worked well, but of course seems like a waste. I began to miss her so much. I didn’t want to drink anymore so I ordered seltzer and water and eventually admitted to J that I just wanted to go home.  

J stayed out with her coworkers, who are a truly awesome bunch, and I took an uber home. I want her to have fun,she works hard, she deserves it. I got home at 11:30. Gia had been sleeping like an angel in her crib pretty much since we left. She’s such a trooper! It was easier to be out knowing she was with our nanny since she’s used to her and loves her. 

On my birthday last week, I had a big glass of wine and told Gia she had to drink a bottle and she did! A very rare thing.  


Nap time


From the nanny – fast asleep right at bedtime!



I write posts in my head while driving or showering, then go back and forth about giving up the blog since I don’t have time to write. This community is important to me though, and was such a big part of creating Gia, so I will stick to short posts and try to do them a little more frequently. I read your posts and feel guilty about not commenting, too. I guess a little is better than nothing!
For a few weeks Gia was going through the 4-month sleep regression, or maybe it was teething or a growth spurt of adjusting to my return to work, who knows. We had some long nights of her crying, waking up constantly, and nursing all night, for hours at a time. 

Things have gotten better and the Gia household is doing well. I’m enjoying being back at work a lot – social work this time of year is necessary so my interactions with clients are rewarding. I love my team and feel invigorated. I’m also drowning in paperwork which is a familiar feeling – optimal stress tipping towards overwhelming stress. For awhile J and I were struggling to agree on certain things and our interactions were tense, but we’ve found our footing when it comes to co-parenting and our relationship, and we’re feeling connected again and having fun. We’ve been away the last couple of weekends, in Palm Springs with friends, then in San Diego for Thanksgiving. Now I’m excited for my birthday, which is tomorrow, and Christmas, which is my favorite time of year. 

Gia is amazing. She has her moments, but overall we are lucky to have an easygoing and adorable little girl. She weighs over 18 pounds and is 27 inches, and can roll over from back to tummy now. She also has a TOOTH! At four months! She continues to refuse a bottle from anyone but the nanny, no matter what we do. Thank goodness she’s learned to drink it while I’m at work though.  

In Palm Springs with my good friend and Gia’s birthday twin:   

Refusing a bottle as usual, making it difficult for me to enjoy a cocktail:
In the hot tub with swim diaper (warm, not hot!): 

 At the martini bar on Black Friday – our first time out without Gia!